Why do you need to recover? You need to because you must. During my recovery, I told myself constantly that I had two options- push forward in my recovery or die. When you are fully recovered and you look back on your years under the control of ED, you will not want to turn back. That is not to say that you would have a perfect life beyond your ED. You won’t. But the difference is that as a recovered person, you will learn to live with life’s imperfections and marvel at the beauty of diversity and difference.
You will cry, but you will also laugh.
You will fall down, but pull yourself back up.
You will sometimes feel inadequate, but there will be this subtle, kind voice within you that whispers, “it’s okay”.
And that’s the biggest thing I gained out of my recovery.
The ability to tell myself that it’s okay.
Because really, it is.
You will appreciate the impermanence of things,
The temporary sadness of loss,
But above all,
The beauty of letting go.
This, my dear, is why you need to recover.
Because to let go is to embrace freedom and happiness.
And in case you have forgotten,
You are so deeply loved,
And your happiness and ability to love yourself matter so damn much.
I hope you realise that.